June Update

I think what has been most significant to me lately has been my entering into a new season; New friendships, new insights, a little more life and a little more boldness and a few new ministry opportunities.

This is about how I spent to much time focusing on what I could not manage, all the while what I could handle was going to pot. Recently it seems like the Lord has helped me reclaim what He had already given me.

I only have twenty pieces
of a 20,000 piece puzzle
Yet I am driven to put it together
Still trying to make out a picture

From what I see I am making conclusions
From what I see i am making assumptions

These conclusions direct my life
And determine my state of being
These assumptions effect my mood
And determine who will be

I am so sure I am right
I know I must be right
and you cannot stop me
from seeing what I see
From feeling what I feel

Except You
Lord shine through

I can finally fully accept that six years of experience and conclusions is only like one piece of a 20,000 piece puzzle. Though my piece is big and all I can see, one day I will see how it fits in the big picture, and how even God being silent, hidden, withdrawn, unresponsive and not helping me when I felt I needed him most, was in fact loving, just and right. One day I will look back and what once caused me to doubt God's love and goodness, will be the very thing I'll rejoice in and marvel about. Truly the Lord is good and is active in my life though my experience has seemed swear the opposite.